it is now christmas eve
one sixteen am is now...
one sixteen am, i think it might need a new name.
doo doo da dum
instructions for dancing
here we go.
yesterday dad and i went to see due date, which was actually pretty funny. zach galifinakis is a great actor, and robert downey jr. nailed it.and then this morning was work, which draaaagged on and on. and then this afternoon there was the bottle depot which netted 60.95$. so i have a grand total of almost 90 dollars to last me two weeks, which is more than i`ve had for a while.
being that there is nothing i can do tonight at home, i have decided to blog.
just a quick update
how can i be this tired?
i still owe rae...
wilbur
coke zero stains this place
oh, the humanity
i thought that i heard you laughing
terry fox. insomnia. school.
i know i need you...
well, i did warn you
the style will not be denied.
letter challenge- your crush
letter challenge- your closest friends
letter challenge
fool is a devil and the devil's a fool
oh my word, what a weekend.
ok, here we go
posting was...
id card taken,
pictures tomorrow!
ladies and gentlemen,
untitled story part 2
weekends rock, then you die?
oh phone, why do you suck?
new blog- for stories
untitled new story- rough draft 1
Matt Kent glanced at his alarm clock which was screeching country music at decibels too high for the hour. With a snarl, he punched the off button and swung his muscular legs out of bed and ambled off to his bathroom. He glanced in the mirror and grinned. What he saw was a 17 year old boy, 6'1, with tousled light brown hair and ice blue eyes. His muscles had finally caught up to the rest of his body, and he had the lean build of a track runner. ‘If only my asthma would let me run, I would whoop everyone on the field.’Matt thought to himself. He shrugged off the negativity and climbed into the steaming water. Normally he would wash lightly, just enough to wash off the thin layer of grime that had accumulated however today he scrubbed every inch of himself. Brushed his teeth and took three gulps of mouthwash, two of which he swallowed. Dressed himself in his nicest ‘school appropriate clothes’ which consisted of a slim blue hoodie and narrow leg jeans, what he hoped would attract the girl that he had been chasing for the better part of a year.
A hasty breakfast later, Matt was in his car heading for school, rehearsing what to say to Amanda Williams. Every time he saw her, he got a smile that he didn’t manage to conjure up for anyone else. He knew that he was completely smitten with her, everyone knew. Andy had been egging him on for months, and today was the day he would finally open up. He adjusted the rearview mirror to see his face as he merged on to the freeway and began practicing his expressions. “Hey Aman-“He never finished the sentence. There was a Hyundai SUV stalled out in his lane, and going 100 kilometres an hour, he ploughed into the rear end.
*
Heather Greenwood applied the finishing touches to her eyeliner before arranging her black hair into the style that made her parents cringe every time they saw it. ‘It serves them right, divorcing and neither one fighting for me.’ With a grimace, she pulled her seventeen year old frame into her black skinny jeans and rummaged around for her Bring Me the Horizon t-shirt. She grunted as she pulled it down, which meant one thing. She poked her head out of her bedroom door. With no parents or annoying sister in sight, she sprinted to the bathroom and stuck her middle finger down her throat, disposing of the little breakfast she had eaten that morning, then brushed her teeth to get rid of the smell the purging had wrought.
Ten minutes later she was in the back seat of her father’s 'soccer-mom' Hyundai Santa-Fe, headed for another day of emotional torture some people call Baker High School. Suddenly a grinding noise came from under her feet, and the vehicle slowed to a stop. Her dad let loose a profanity and got out of the car to raise the hood. Before he could get around the front of the car, he watched in horror as a small Japanese car sped full speed into the trunk and came to a rest upside down above his daughter.
*
“What do we have?”
“Seventeen year old male, fractured skull, fractured neck, three broken ribs, broken femur, and multiple internal injuries.”
“Turf him to surgery, if he makes it through the night, it’ll be a freaking miracle. What about the other vehicle?”
“Seventeen year old female, two broken ribs, punctured lung and major concussion. She’s been intubated and she’s stable. We’ll schedule surgery in the morning.”
*
Matt awoke with a start. “Lights, lights aren’t supposed to be on at this time? I’m gonna get Dad back for this one. What time is it? Manda will kill me if she realises I slept in. Where are my pyjamas? Man, my head hurts. Wait...”
The neck brace was restricting his movement. He couldn’t feel anything below his neck, anyway. Looking around, he saw the intravenous tube sticking out of his hand. Opened his mouth to cry out, his head was really hurting now. He head a low, piteous moan and realised it came from him.
Matt was about to start screaming for his father when he heard a noise beside him. Unable to look, he tried to speak again, but all that came out was the same moan from before.
“You’re awake! Doctor! My son woke up!”
Footsteps. There was someone rushing to his room, but where was his room? He felt confused, he was in pain, and there was a tube in his mouth and in his hand. With a small sigh, he let sleep take him once more.
*
Two rooms away, Heather was fuming. She felt good enough to get up and walk, they had reinflated her lung already, and her ribs were set back into place, but if she wanted to go anywhere she had to call a nurse to lift her into a wheelchair. And they wouldn’t even let her see the boy who had hit her; she wanted to punch him in the face for causing this. Oh, he would suffer so much. “I bet they let him go wherever he wants because he’s a boy. I’ll make him pay for all of this.” Deciding on the spot to solve this herself, she stumbled over to her chair and wheeled herself to the boy’s room two doors down.
As she wheeled into his room, she was immediately shocked at what she saw. There were no doctors in sight, the boy’s father and the physician were down the hall talking. Slowly, she wheeled herself to the chart hanging on the end of his bed.
*
Matt was slipping in and out of consciousness. He would be awake for five seconds, then the image he saw would be burned into his retinas until he awoke again. For two hours, he saw a slim girl in a wheelchair reading a chart at the end of his bed, tear marks on her high cheekbones.
He awoke again to see the girl talking to his father and another man. Doctor? No, no lab coat or scrubs. The girl’s father maybe. He attempted to greet them, but what came out was a raspy ‘hello’. No more tube in his throat then. Saw the girls eyes open wide.
“I thought you must be dead,” she began. “I’m the girl you hit.”
Matt raced through his mind. “Hit? Accident. Car accident. Nicole...shit. I was in a car accident. Hyundai. Blue. Man beside it, this man?’
“Sorry,” the words grated his throat. “I’m-“
And he lapsed back into unconsciousness.
*
Heather was pretty sure she was in shock. The accident was beginning to take its toll, sitting for so long in her wheelchair was making her ribs hurt like a son of a gun. The boy had fallen asleep again, probably because of the morphine they were pumping into his veins, so she grimaced and wheeled herself back to her room down the hall, and with her dad’s help, got back into bed.
”Sorry. Little prick, that’s all he says? I’m gonna sue the crap out of him.” Her dad was fuming, pacing around her room with an intensity he usually saved for when her mother came into the room.
“Dad-“
“Save it. We’ll get every cent out of him, no one hurts my daughter and gets away with it.”
“Don’t do this, can’t you see he’s suffered enough?!” The words came easily, and they hit their mark perfectly. Her dad looked flabbergasted that she had even mentioned it, like she didn’t want the money.
“I’m fine,” she continued. “It’s him we have to worry about. Look at the state of him, for goodness sake! And you want to take the little money that family will have left after medical bills just so that you don’t have to work to pay alimony for a couple months. Dad, get out of here and let me get some sleep!”
The words worked to get her dad out of her room, but there was no way she was sleeping. There were too many thoughts going through her head.
5000 SURVEY- PART 4
A- sex
B- camping. even though i hate hate hate nature
C- perfect attendance for a year. nerdy? yes. impossible? probably.
D- mosh pit. they seem like good clean fun :D
E- marriage
302. Will you try to accomplish any of these things within the next year?
C, D, yes. i sure hope not E.
303. What do you feel controlled by?
this darn hypnotist i went to in Reno. just kidding.
304. If Jesus appeared to you and told you that the moon was made of green cheese would you believe him?
yeah, it's Jesus talking, man.
305. What is one thing you are sure of?
I have five toes on each foot. And now I double checked, surprisingly.
306. At what part of the day do you feel the most alert?
7 am
307. Have you ever played in a band?
sigh, yes.
308. Have you ever stared into the ocean thinking 'early creatures crawled outta that'?
no, because evolution, imho, is bunk.
309. If not, what do you think of when you are staring into the ocean?
'Dude, that would be nice to swim in.'
310. Do you like the mental challenge of chess or other games?
Chess is pretty sweet, tbh
311. Do you ever think of where your atoms were before they were in you?
EW NO! OH, THAT'S SICK, 5000 SURVEY!
312. Do you ever think about where your atoms will go after they have been in you?
i try not to.
313. If you didn't know that people couldn't fly do you think that you could?
you're stupid. this is stupid.
314. Are you someone that others call when they're having a problem and want to talk about it?
call or text? i get a lot of texts comme ca
315. When it comes to literature, do you see beyond the writing and into the meaning intended by the author?
if it's a good book.
316. Is there anything you can take apart completely, and then put back together, and have no left over parts?
2 pieces of lego.
317. What are your feelings about the death penalty?
it's pretty sweet.
318. If there was a god and you could ask him/her one question what would it be?
God should be capitalised, fool. Why he invented people who can't spell.
319. Do you believe that life will be found on other planets?
No. Yes. No. Yes. No. AAAAAAAHHHH!
320. What is something worth suffering for?
Love.
321. If you could put an extra eye on your body anywhere you wanted, where would you put it?
*snickers* no not there, perv. my chest. or my back
322. Are you in touch with the earth and nature?
hells no
323. Would you rather live simply or extravagently?
depends on the day
324. Have you ever been camping?
if you had read the answer to question 301, no.
325. Is your heart open when you meet someone new?
not usually. it takes some time
326. Are you able to have conversations with and become friends with people who are not like you and are interested in different things than you are?
yes
327. Are strangers more beautiful or frightening to you?
there are people other than me and my close personal friends? i'll be jiggered.
328. What stops you from doing everything you want to do?
what?
329. Can you think of three adjective that do not apply to you at all?
no. but that's because i'm almost 16 and still don't know what an adjective is. i have bluffed my way through english.
330. How do you feel about Jeremy Jaynes, who got a nine year prison sentence for spamming people with junk email (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Jeremy_Ja
aces.
331. Do you know who the current premier of China is?
Kim Jong Il? no. then no.
332. Are you very active?
noooooo
333. Is there a city that reminds you of the landscape of your brain?
edmonton. there is no direct path to get anywhere.
334. Have you ever loved someone who has loved you back?
Jesus :D lol
335. Is it really being 'in love with' someone if the other person doesn't love you?
BRAIN EXPLOSION!
336. Do you believe that there is someone perfect for everyone or that people just fall in love with who ever they are with at the time?
Number 2, Drew.
337. Do you know secret things?
yyeeeessssss
338. Have you ever fallen in love with someone you shouldn't have?
no...?
339. How do you overcome your fears?
punch myself in the groin. i don't know!
340. What can you do better than anyone you know?
play halo.
341. Would you benefit from a wilder existence?
shut up.
342. Does it seem to you like the range of socially acceptable behavior is getting smaller or larger?
larger
343. Have you ever fired a gun?
several times
344. Are people becoming more afraid of each other?
yeah
345. If you had to choose the percentage of freedom vs. safety what ratio would you decide on (ex: 100% free 0% safe)?
50-50
346. Does safety stifle you?
no?
347. Who or what needs to be stopped?
the train that's heading for the little kids playing on the tracks.
348. Are human beings becoming more domesticated?
I don't follow
349. Do you follow the lives of the British Royal Family?
AHAHAHAHA no.
350. How did the death of Pope John Paul II (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Pope_John
It didn't, really. I'm not Catholic.
351. Have you ever lost something and never found it?
My camera...Where did it GO?
352. Do you listen to any talk radio shows?
noooo
353. Who do you trust more, your friends or your parents?
I trust them both
354. Would you ever date someone outside of your race or religion?
Race? Yes. Religion? It's iffy.
355. Which of the 7 deadly sins in the worst (gluttony, greed, pride, lust, envy, wrath, sloth)?
A sin is a sin. There is no level to determine which is the worst. They're equal.
356. Which one are you most guilty of?
Ooh boy. Dunno.
357. Are you afraid to be alone with yourself?
No?
Do you try to avoid thinking?
No
358. Would you venture to tell someone you loved him or her if they didn't say it first?
Yeah
359. What are you the most sensitive about?
Like what?
360. What can you talk about for hours?
Anything :P
361. Do you talk about yourself, other people, or ideas the most?
All 3.
362. Do you believe that spell casting can work?
NO
363. Are you a fan of The Legend of Zelda games?
NO
364. What old movie would you go see if it were re-released in the movie theaters?
Avatar :P
365. Is there a celebrity that you would be too starstruck to talk to if you met them?
Megan Fox. Mainly because of the looks though.
366. Have you ever left a mean unsigned note?
No
367. Do you think it's cheesy to paste things you didn't write into your diary?
Yeah
368. What are three things that you try not to think about?
Death
Work
369. Is casual sex acceptable for you?
370. What form of sexual protection do you use?
I haven't had to use any yet
371. What is expected of you that you feel is unnatural or not right?
I don't follow
372. Do you sometimes place your own expectations on other people?
All the time
373. Do you sometimes act overeager to make friends when you are around strangers?
On occasion. Usually I'm pretty passive
374. Do you take everything that is said literally?
Oh yeah
375. Do you take most things others say seriously?
Yeah
376. Do you have a quick wit?
Lol yes
377. Do you believe in the need for political correctness?
No
378. Do you have strong opinions and beliefs?
Yes
379. If yes, can you still hang out with and be friends with people who disagree with you?
Yes
380. Are you uptight?
No
381. Do you sometimes do risky things?
Yes
382. Could just about anyone hold your interest in a conversation for at least ten minutes?
Yes
383. Are you self-conscious?
Yes
384. What would be your ideal destination for a Saturday afternoon?
Somewhere fun?
385. Does anyone have a video tape of you doing soemthing embaressing?
Like misspelling words? Talk to me when you learn English.
386. What is Kevin Smith’s(http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ke
Not sure
387. Where do you like to go on Friday or Saturday nights?
Home
388. Do you like your friends to act the same way all the time or do you accept their moods and changes?
I accept them
389. Do you often feel like other people are judging you?
Sometimes. I'm not paranoid
390. What do you think other people judge you to be like?
I don't know
391. Are you quick to judge others?
Yeah. I'm not happy about it
392. When you have a fight with someone do you want to talk about it right away or calm down first and then talk?
Calm down first
393. Some say love is a river (according to the old song). What do you say love is?
A state of mind
394. What is the worst fault a person can have?
Halitosis
395. Do you have it?
Sometimes :P
396. Which do you think has more impact on a person’s character, genetics or environment?
Environment
397. Who was your first best friend?
Kyle Berg
398. If you are not best friends anymore, what came between you?
Distance
399. Who have you read a biography about?
Bonnie and Clyde
400. What would your own autobiography be called?
WAS IT THE LYING OR THE PRIDE
DEATH CAB TIME? MAYBE LATER!
ROCK THE RIVER
OOPS, I MISSED YESTERDAY
YOU WERE SO MUCH BETTER THAN ME
FORGETTING ALL I`M LACKING
SYLVAN LAKE PHOTO EXTRAVAGANZA
I GIVE IN TO THE TRIED AND TRUE
Come right out and say it?
Even if the words are probably gonna hurt
I'd rather have the truth
Than something insincere
Why don't you
Come right out and say it (come right out and say it)?
What it is you're thinking
Though I'm thinking it's not what I wanna hear
I need you here
I need you now
I need security somehow
I need you
Like you would not believe
You're the only thing I want
Cause you're everything I need
I JUST HAVE BRUISED AND BATTERED HANDS
DR PEPPER, RAIN, SYLVAN LAKE
I CAN SMELL THE DEATH ON THE SHEETS COVERING ME
THIS POST HAS NO TITLE! OK, THIS COUNTS AS A TITLE
I`VE BEEN MISGUIDED BY YOU
MY POSTS ARE GETTING SHORTER
I FORGOT TO BLOG YESTERDAY.
AW SHI-
HAPPY?
BLASTED CBE
WHEN A HEART BREAKS NO IT DON'T BREAK EVEN
YOU WOULD THINK I HAD SOMETHING TO TALK ABOUT AFTER 4 DAYS IN EDMONTON
5000 SURVEY- PART 3
202. What do you feel unworthy of?
I don't really feel unworthy of anything.
203. Would you rather be remembered for having done something for humanity or being a really nice person?
I would like to be remembered, period.
204. Which do you value more: science or intuition?
Intuition, i suppose
205. Your best friend and your significant other are in the hospital at the same time with the same ailment. Who do you visit first?
Hopefully my best friend IS my significant other
206. Does the universe revolve around human beings?
No.
207. If you are no longer a virgin, do you wish you still were?
I am still a virgin, thank you.
208. Who is your favorite poet of those who are alive right now?
Rae, my sister
209. What is your favorite song from the 90's?
Call me stereotypical, but Smells Like Teen Spirit- Nirvana
210. If you were in alphabet soup what letter would you be?
B. Duh.
211. Do you believe in fairies, ghosts, aliens, angels, dwarves, elves, etc.?
Why would you group angels in with mythical creatures?
212. What makes you want to be someone’s friend?
If they're nice, things in common, etc.
213. Do you troll around the Internet harassing people anonymously for fun?
No
214. Have you ever seen the movie A Man Who Fell to Earth?
No
215. What is your favorite line from a movie?
BTTF 2: Marty: There he is Doc! Let's land on him, we'll cripple his car!
216. What's your favorite video game?
Halo 3
217. Have you ever taken something that wasn't yours?
Yes.
218. What is one phrase people say that irritates you?
Not a phrase, but if they think they sing and they can't
219. You allow strangers to read your diary, but would you let your parents read it?
I don't let either read it...
220. Hot steamy bubble bath or quick in and out shower?
Long shower :D
221. Are you allergic to anything?
Yes
222. What is your favorite Terminator movie?
3
223. What is your favorite fast food?
Wendy's Baconator
224. What would someone have to do to get you to never speak to him or her again?
Be a total d-bag
225. Would (or have) you ever whip someone or be whipped by someone in bed?
No!
226. Have you ever said 'I hate everyone' and really meant it literally?
No
227. Why do some people want to get more money than they could ever spend?
Because they're dumb?
228. Have you ever won a carnival fish?
No
229. Did it live more than a week?
N/A
230. What's the best sounding accent a person can have?
Irish. Even if it's a guy.
231. What's the most boring thing you've ever read?
Oh lordy...
232. Do you prefer buttons or touch screens?
Touch screens
233. Do you think there is a lot of similarity between the Harry Potter books and the Lord of the Rings series?
No
234. Would you consider yourself to be naive?
No
235. Which of your friends is most likely to go to jail?
Danny
236. What is the smallest amount of money that could be in a public toilet that would make you reach in and grab it?
2 bucks. Also depends on the cleanliness of said toilet.
237. Would you ever wear real fur?
Yes
238. Arachnophobia or Eight Legged Freaks?
Arachnophobia
239. What are your feelings about police officers?
Society would disintegrate without them
240. what is your favorite line from a song?
I'm not alright, I'm broken inside, and all I go through, it leads me to You (I'm not alright- Sanctus real)
241. Is fifty dollars a lot of money?
Not really
242. Do you like the band Front 242 (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Front_242
No, never heard them
243. Would you rather have fame, money, or self-satisfaction?
Self satisfaction
244. What's your middle name?
Gordon Dieter
245. What is the absolute limit, the craziest thing you would do for a million dollars?
Name things, then I'll pick one.
246. Are you good, evil or neutral?
I like to think good, but probably neutral with good tendencies.
247. Should ebonics (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ebonics)
Yes
248. What color is your bedroom?
Red
What color would you like it to be?
Green, lime green
249. When are you planning to move to a new home?
End of high school
250. If you added up the cost of everything in the room with you, approximately what would it come out to be?
1000$, maybe more
251. Do you blow your nose in public?
252. Do you want to follow in your parent's footsteps?
No
253. What is the coolest web site you know of?
Smosh.com
254. Which cartoon would you most like to see turned into a movie?
The Simpsons- Sequel!
255. Of the following, which word best describes you: enthusiastic, fair minded, generous, helpful
Fair minded
256. Can you eat with chopsticks?
Yes
257. Could you tell real money from counterfeit?
Yes
258. What do you think about school uniforms?
They're dumb. So much for fair minded, eh?
259. What ancient civilization would you most like to visit?
Jerusalem
260. What would make a great new Crayola color?
Taupe
261. If an art project is created with the intent of getting rich and famous, does that cast doubt over its significance as a work of art?
No
262. If you became president, whom would you invite to sing at your inauguration?
Rae
263. Who is the greatest philosopher of your country?
Markus Lemke
264. If all the nations in the world are in debt, where did all the money go?
Probably to your mom. Ooops, was that out loud?
265. Is it as easy to make you happy now as it was when you were a child?
Almost, almost.
266. Who knows more...you, or your parents?
My parents
267. What instrument would you like to be famous for playing?
Bass, guitar
268. Children fill its lungs completely with air. Adults breathe in a more shallow way, not filling their lungs completely. Why the change?
Children need more air to inflate their heads.
269. Would you have sex with a stranger for one million dollars?
Yes. Mind you, you are talking to a 15 year old boy. Ask me in ten years.
270. Are you completely in control of your body?
I dont understand. Yes?
Are you completely in control of your mind?
No
271. Which is more romantic: an expensive, glittering bouquet OR flowers that were hand picked as they grew beside the parkway?
Number 2, Bob.
272. Do you know yourself well enough to understand why you feel the way you do?
Yes
273. Which do you do more often: let movies, songs and books put your feelings into words for you or put your feelings into words by yourself?
Number 2, Bob.
274. Do you believe celebrities when they are endorsing a product?
On occasion
275. What kind of movies do you wish were made more often?
Movies like Inception
276. Does fashion matter to you?
Yes
277. Should politicians be held to the same legal standards as everyone else?
Yes
278. What do you get in trouble for the most?
Homework
279. Should parents spank their kids?
Yes
280. What is your worst daily habit?
Junk food.
281. If you had your choice which one TV show would you have canceled?
The Bachelor(ette)
282. Do you like the taste of sweet or salt?
Both
283. Are you very precise about what words you use to describe your feelings and thoughts?
Yes
284. What do you feel the most guilty about?
Oh jeez...
285. Do you meditate?
No
286. Can dreams be visions, or do you feel they are always random images?
Being one who has Deja Vu on almost a weekly basis, visions.
287. Do you try to write/say what you are feeling in a true and simple way?
Yes
288. The thief _______ that everyone steals.
What verb would you fill in the blank with?
believes
289. What's the most incredible experience you ever had?
http://www.xelha.com/seatrek/ You wear something like an old fashioned dive helmet, and you walk around on the ocean floor with stingrays. It was amazing!
290. Are you ever afraid to write/say/think how you feel?
No
291. Do you write/say/think it anyway or become intimidated and try to avoid it?
I say it anyway
292. What is one thing you can't do?
Skydive
293. Do you like movies starring Charleton Heston (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Charleton
Dunno
294. Are you gentle?
I like to think so
295. When do you feel the most raw and vulnerable?
I dont honestly know.
296. Are you trying to find yourself?
I think I already have
297. Where are you looking?
Church, School, Home
298. Are you sometimes afraid of being honest because you are afraid of hurting people's feelings?
No
299. What would make you a stronger person?
I dont know
300. What book would you like to read sometime soon?